I'll never forget the day we met, the way you looked at me was like never before. I tell my friends and they never understand but it's an amazing feeling meeting someone who looks right into your eyes and sees you, the raw you.
Someone told me it will all get better with such certainty that I let myself believe. With tears swelling up, I can't take it anymore, I just want to believe it can get better, I can feel better, I can trust again.
Exhausted of these feelings. Seriously I need a change. Years I've been chained to you, hoping for a change, but boy it's always the same, me loving you, you leaving me. It's not fair and it's time for a change.
Drowning in our memories is all I seem to do now, funny how happy times bring tears to my eyes. What do I do? What do I do with all these feelings? Is there somewhere I can throw them away? Is there someone who wants them? I don't want to know, I don't want to feel the emptyness of what might have been.
Don't you see my heart bleeding for you? Don't you see my soul is aching for you? Don't you see that all I ever think about is you? Don't you care about how I feel? Don't you want to see where this goes?
The answer is no, no, no, i don't care and no. One last thing, f** you for asking me all that now that I've moved on.
I wanted to call you so badly, but what was I going to say? I've missed you these past 3 days. It's pathetic, how can I not live without you for that amount of time. Maybe it's not that I can't, maybe it's just that I don't want to.
I haven't slept well in a while, I keep thinking of you and what might happen if we ever meet again. I've been told to resist it, if I give in I'll lose it all but we both know I can't deal with temptation.